What happens when you watch to much movies?

Its funny how things turn out in life.. I say this because I have come to realise something of me recently. Nothing pettrifying , just something to ponder on. Just as every young adult experience, the stepping into the world is an excitement. Touching the prohibited, going against all rules give every rebel the excitement that tingles the blood in those veins, well, including mine.
Yet, this love for some fresh and new died away when you realise this is all just a fantasy.. .. realising that your mind has been infested by the demonic and poison of modern TV programmes/ dramas/ love stories.. Is life said to be as it is as depicted by those beautiful actors and actresses.. or was it all a scam after all? You tell me cause my logic tells me they are simply feeding the dull and boring minds of cowards.. but,on the other hand, my emotion says they are all real, after all, we can only do what we have seen , we can only act what we have learnt.. having said that, the contrary sets in cause then only would such fantasy come to life when people watch them and act upon them..
SO, after all the 'figuring out', I still have yet to find my answer..... I supposed it is similar to some one out there, to have your brain cluttered with questions , which every day, you attempt to answer.....

life

Why oh why
is my life so dry
not that i never tried
to make it as sweet as a pie

it just that ,so happens
my life is filled with assignments
every minute, every second
working towards completion.

I like it when it rhymes
as though everything is fine
but sometimes it is as sour as lime
argh, but never mind
one day , they will smell like honey and thyme.

LIFE

Life is too short
Dont fill it with pettiness
and insistence on personal preference
Live it tto he fullest
so that when you are all old and wringly,
you can look back without any sense of regrets.

YOur heart

Lost
is the heart of someone
for not knowing what may the truth reveal
it is only natural to fear and anticipate the best outcome.

Love
is the heart of someone
so much so that it tickles your soul
and punctured your heart
as though you can reach the sky

Hatred
is the heart of someone
carrying grudges every minute every second
so burdensome and tired that you fall apart
at the very end

Emotions
are wonderful;
not knowing when will they arrive
it is a mystery which lies within our destiny.

* ps
I know it doesn't rhyme
nor it sounds fine
but it is a matter of truth
to awaken those feelings in aloof.

Forgive and Forget

As simple as the phrase may sound
yet it takes a thousand years
for us to reach there

As wonderful as the end may seems
yet we still hesitate so much to make a move

As beautiful as the words are said and written
in the bible,
in self help books,
in my memory with friends and family,
it seems at times,
it never got to me..

Have my heart turn old
Have my heart turn cold
So I wonder and ponder
hoping a solution will come to me
a fire
a lighting
anything at all
that would struck my heart so forcefully
till there is only a rush in me
to see things in a new perspective
to live a life of freedom
to carry a heart of gold.

Forgive and forget, my friends
is an arduous journey for me
but, I will try my best for
I am in need of a search
for what has been forsaken
for something that was once precious to me.

Words beyond sight

Picture speaks a thousand words
Words which are so powerful,
that they penetrate your soul
So deep and beyond
that it hits the core.

Once in contact,
a relationship is generated,
a connection is initiated,
a revelation is exposed,
all emotions flow through our veins
But, this time pouring out like a river,
as though there is no end to it.
no longer hidden,
no longer holding back,
Just me and who I am,
without the mask.

Missing out

Time simply don't wait for you.
It's flight is beyond our human control
Unknowingly, it flew a mile unnoticed.
I hate this sort of feeling
Missing out on the moment
not being there when I should have
worst of all,
there was no reason for the excuse.

Everything seems to go wrong now
not picking up myself
when I should have .
Sigh... i need to gather my spirit
and self encourage
otherwise, i 'll lose to time again.